Talking with God about Shame: a unique conversation
Posted on July 21, 2020 by David Cunningham, One of Thousands of Spirituality Coaches on Noomii.
In this article David records a conversation written between himself and God using stream of consciousness writing on the topic of shame.
Talking with God about Shame
The following is a written conversation between me and the God of my own understanding. This is done through stream of consciousness writing where I will write out my thoughts and then write down whatever flows out of me at the time. It is done quickly, typically in one session and after a period of meditation. Some may argue that this is not God’s thoughts, but only my higher self or the higher consciousness of my frontal lobe. I would argue that it doesn’t matter. In this process I have gained tremendous insight that wasn’t accessible to me normally. I share it with you here at the risk of being thought a delusional lunatic only because the truths here have been healing and helpful to me and I hope they can be so for you also. The following is a copy of my exact conversation on July 18, 2020. Only grammar and spelling has been corrected.
David: What can you tell me about shame?
God: It is a product of the ego run life. It is by nature seeing yourself separate from others and Source. It is out of this place that the ego then plays the “less than- greater than” game with others as a way of determining its own value. The problem with this is that even if it is determined that you are better than most, there is always someone better and there is only a short window to be the “best” in any one area. As a result, there is constant fear about losing the title and being overthrown by the new contender. Additionally, focusing one’s attention completely in one area to rise to the top means inherently you will neglect other areas of your life. While you may be great at your job and making money, you may suck as a father and husband. We see this everywhere in the clichés of the dumb jock, the nerd without social skills, their actor on their sixth marriage, the priest who molests boys.
D: Wow that last one is a doozy!
G: Knowledge of the scripture can be just another ego thing…nothing is sacred to the ego.
D: What is the solution?
G: Oneness with Source, oneness with others, oneness with self… love. Shame says, “I am no good- a mistake, unworthy.” This is a type of narcissism where you think of yourself at the detriment of others.
D: The “egomaniac with an inferiority complex.”
G: Exactly. It is a fear driven state.
D: Yes.
G: It is diabolical in nature. The same vibration as dark forces in the world. In this fear or separate state, we see others as vehicles or obstacles, competition or prey, things to be used or to watch out for being used by.
D: I know what that feels like all too well. I could be in a crowd and feel completely alone. Fear drove me everywhere. I could receive a great complement and not even feel it because of the ego. I saw the other as separate and competition. In my mind, the compliments were attempts at manipulating me or at best an effort to make themselves look and feel good.
G: It is just like a man dying of thirst (for love) in the desert, desperate for water coming across an oasis spring bubbling with cool water. He is convinced it must be a trap or hallucination and refuses a drink from a fellow traveler. He goes on to curse God and man as evil for abandoning him.
D: What about those that have been shamed during crucial parts of development who can’t seem to let go of the negative self-talk?
G: Love is the answer. You must re-parent those parts of the self.
D: How?
G: Either by inviting other benevolent beings (myself included) to speak truth, encouragement and love into your life and/or going back in time and giving yourself what you needed and never got.
D: This is what I do as a coach. It is what I did to heal.
G: Yes. Healing shame is the most impactful thing you can do in your life and in the lives of others. I think sometimes you can think that your usefulness is your knowledge. I think it is your experience. It allows for deep levels of compassion and empathy and oneness- love. That is the difference between what you do as a coach versus as a therapist. Don’t get me wrong, both are needed but they are not the same thing, nor do they produce the same results. Therapy is often focused on unraveling the mysteries of the mind. Your gift is the heart-healing the heart.
D: Thank you for that insight. I’ve been confused about all of that for some time now.
